Friday, September 19, 2008

im listen to my soul

I don’t know how to spread out what I’m feel just right now.
I’m just already listen for more than 64 songs, watched 3 movie straight away and depleted damn game at my computer, but my heart and my mind still concentrated and thinking for one thing that are made by God . Love.
Everybody need someone who’s gonna be there for them, no matter what happen. Someone who they can trust truly deeply without uncertainty. And most importanly, someone who truly.. Love them.
Since today, I’ve only truly been in love once. With “she”, most amazing woman in the world. But I was young, stupid, and maybe so fucking shit, and I messed it up. But in my great list of mistake, that was the greatest. When I finally found out how stupid I was and I decided to fight for it, but I was too late. She wouldn’t take me back. She was right. And then it really was too late. And I don’t expect “she” to forgive me, and even to love me again. But I love "she" so much. Surely.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Permintaan Ratu Dewi Kesuma Indera itu;

“ ambillah apa yang jadi milikku, simpanlah apa yang memang milikmu”.
Lalu sang ratu pun berlari mengecapi keindahan dunia dengan berbekalkan kebebasan dan kelebihan yang dimiliki. Terlena si pengemis di pingiran hatta menanti bulan akan jatuh ke riba. Dua pertiga nafas si pengemis menghembus terus ke bayangan sang ratu. Menunduk sedih, berdoa akan hadirnya kembali sang Ratu suatu detik nanti. Akankah detik itu tiba . . .

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Be Yourself not Herself

- Sekadar Gambar Hiasan -

Sometimes we try to fit into certain groups of cliques. When we do that we often try to impress other people; we try to become what they want us to be. This often ends with bad effects if we gain acceptance from them. The most important thing is to be yourself above and beyond anything else. People are attracted to qualites that others express not popularity or physicality. It's important that you always act exactly as you are as people can see through you not being yourself.

When you're trying to be someone you are not, it's like putting on a mask or covering your face with your hands in a game of peek-a-boo. The mentality of it being, since you can't see them clearly they must not be able to see you either. This is a corrupt assumption. They may not see you clearly at first but eventually your mask will develop craks and they will see you for who you really are. What will happen then? Oh horror, they may not like the real you. You might be disappointed and ashamed of the you you've been and always will be. Honestly though, would you really want to spend time around people acting as something you are not? The answer to this, eventually if not already, is no.

Every one of us is a unique individual. If we all tried to be like each other, something we're not, we would ll end up being the same. Is that what we want? A race of clones? No... Besides, you have to have difference to have sameness. Just as you have to have light to have dark, good to have bad, and equal to have unequal. If you deny yourself the right to be individual you're also denying yourself your dreams, your thoughts, the right to make your own choices; for your life will be dictated by those you want to be. You will be denying yourself the right to be you. If you aren't yourself you will be fighting a battle against your inner self. a war that can so easily be avoided by self acceptance, but one of the hardest to win. This is one of the greatest tragedies of life.

Sometimes people will judge you by your looks, or popularity, or intelligence, etc. It happens sometimes... Most important of all though is being the you that you love. Not the one that the popular girl will, and no the one that the guy-who-sits-next-to-you-biology will, the one you will. If you can't trust yourself and be yourself just for you life is going to be pretty long and miserable; because you have to live the rest of your life with you, believe it or not. You have to take care of yourself, and be happy with yourself... And, as we have been trying to say, be yourself! Because in truth, you are the only person that you have got for keeps, so you have to watch out for yourself, and that's the truth. By the way, do you want to know something really subversive? If you really want to be a rebel, like yourself.

Friday, September 5, 2008

This day is Friday

"The thing about plans is they don't take into account the unexpected, so when we're thrown a curve ball, whether it's in the O.R. or in life, we have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us just have to move on to plan B, and make the best of it. And sometimes what we want is exactly what we need. But sometimes, sometimes what we need is a new plan." - Meredith Grey [Grey's Anatomy]